原本想说最近尽量不打blog……不过我真的有一点点受不了……
我和她吵了一下【其实是两天】……老实说，我还不是很懂到底发生什么事情……
她很奇怪的。一是可以很好没有问题。但是一瞬间，自己想多了，就emo……
是啦，人是可以因为想太多，一下子emo的啦。不过……对我来说，她太快了咯……
完全没有前兆，原本在电话谈到笑到肚子痛，转过头关电话就马上，听着哦，是马上emo哦！
讲emo就emo，然后就会问爱不爱我过后就会问我要不要分手……
同样的事情是发生了好几次……
我明明很爱她啊，虽然没有常常想念她，但总是把她挂在嘴边…
她却没有办法理解…常因为一点小事质疑我不爱她。
我怕我真的有一天会厌倦……不过可能这个是报应啦……
报应一个一个来了……
我是不知道啦……我觉得最近身边的人都很陌生……我发现到我和大家有那么一点点的不一样……
so far除了林子威，我找不到真的知道我在想什么的人……
我所感受到的东西，别人都感受不到……我喜欢的东西，别人都接受不到……
我没有办法理解……
为什么这么好的东西，这么温暖的东西，这么触碰人心的东西，他们居然感受不到？
为什么还没有了解它，这么快便拒绝了？
为什么为什么……
我怕我会疯掉……
【我在发泄，乱乱讲话……】
2010年11月12日星期五
2010年11月7日星期日
just received a request from my dance club senior Alex Nvs that whether i wanna perform for the next event in January...and my answer is yes...
u know what, i love dancing although i don't really have the talent in it, but i love dancing especially popping, nothing could be better then moving, popping your body along with the rhythm and tempo of the song!!! seriously when u dance, u feel the freedom...as well as drawing...^^ aiya i also dont know what im talking = =
hey man i miss my lastime punye body shape neh~now fat fat, dance also like shit== no buddy will look at meT,T
u know what, i love dancing although i don't really have the talent in it, but i love dancing especially popping, nothing could be better then moving, popping your body along with the rhythm and tempo of the song!!! seriously when u dance, u feel the freedom...as well as drawing...^^ aiya i also dont know what im talking = =
hey man i miss my lastime punye body shape neh~now fat fat, dance also like shit== no buddy will look at meT,T
2010年10月25日星期一
post for 25
today WAS a fuckin great day since I'd done my presentation, and to me, it is a perfect presentation in 5 minute of my life.Eventhough im not that good enough, but i'd throw all my heart and blood in it, I'm satisfied. ^^
and today, is yuen keii's bufday...soo pity that having to birthday during the exam huh??haha hopefully i can attend ur celebration la...^^ btw sang yat fai lok!!!
However, the cheeriness should stop at the moment.
everything turn up side down once i get into room...i heard something from my bro which is the phrases i dislike the most
"i don't want to live in a mountains on RUBBISH..."
in the past few weeks, I'd forgotten wtf they were arguing with, i mean my bro and dad were in 1 side and going against me la...
but as what i remember is, something ridiculous was spamming out from their fucking mouth
dad:"Hai yan lai de zhe ge...mei you yong liao de, fei wu lai de"
【all the bad terms in chinese or cantonese was continually comin out from his mouth】
bro:"yea la, i tahan very long ad, useless and hopeless liao de la him"
【i tell u, my bro was treating me so fuckin nice before it】
【 but at that moment, i realized its all illusion】
【he is pretending all the time...although i don't know wtfuckin purpose he is havin】
so now let me conclude all the fuckin bullshit stuff they said is~
im totally useless and hopeless at all, i have to stress the word USELESS
im OK with this word actually, it suits me a lot...
i was lying to myself all the time that im not useless as i did lastime, i'd grown [i guess]
in UTAR, i pay so much effort on doing all the presentations, assignments, all i want to do is get their recognize, however i realized, its just not enough...i fed up on telling them im useful, because its just not enough...im totally "tak boleh pakai" to them...a fucking failure under the comparison with the other 2 kids of him...
NO MATTER HOW WELL I'VE DONE, AS LONG AS MY ROOM IS MESSY, I WILL BE CLASSIFIED INTO A VEYR VERY USELESS CATEGORY...
My stuff is messy, i admit that im useless also la...i dont even manage my books, papers baik baik...im enjoy living sleeping in this fuckin mess SO WHAT!!!
I respect u alot ad right? i never ever say that ur things is RUBBISH!!
yea imma rubbish, but my stuff NOT AT ALL!!! they have their own meaning to me!!
u can disrespect to me, but to my drawings or comic, u are not forgivable at all...
u dont have the right to say that im show no respect to u, please think of what u hv done to me NOW
and today, is yuen keii's bufday...soo pity that having to birthday during the exam huh??haha hopefully i can attend ur celebration la...^^ btw sang yat fai lok!!!
However, the cheeriness should stop at the moment.
everything turn up side down once i get into room...i heard something from my bro which is the phrases i dislike the most
"i don't want to live in a mountains on RUBBISH..."
in the past few weeks, I'd forgotten wtf they were arguing with, i mean my bro and dad were in 1 side and going against me la...
but as what i remember is, something ridiculous was spamming out from their fucking mouth
dad:"Hai yan lai de zhe ge...mei you yong liao de, fei wu lai de"
【all the bad terms in chinese or cantonese was continually comin out from his mouth】
bro:"yea la, i tahan very long ad, useless and hopeless liao de la him"
【i tell u, my bro was treating me so fuckin nice before it】
【 but at that moment, i realized its all illusion】
【he is pretending all the time...although i don't know wtfuckin purpose he is havin】
so now let me conclude all the fuckin bullshit stuff they said is~
im totally useless and hopeless at all, i have to stress the word USELESS
im OK with this word actually, it suits me a lot...
i was lying to myself all the time that im not useless as i did lastime, i'd grown [i guess]
in UTAR, i pay so much effort on doing all the presentations, assignments, all i want to do is get their recognize, however i realized, its just not enough...i fed up on telling them im useful, because its just not enough...im totally "tak boleh pakai" to them...a fucking failure under the comparison with the other 2 kids of him...
NO MATTER HOW WELL I'VE DONE, AS LONG AS MY ROOM IS MESSY, I WILL BE CLASSIFIED INTO A VEYR VERY USELESS CATEGORY...
My stuff is messy, i admit that im useless also la...i dont even manage my books, papers baik baik...im enjoy living sleeping in this fuckin mess SO WHAT!!!
I respect u alot ad right? i never ever say that ur things is RUBBISH!!
yea imma rubbish, but my stuff NOT AT ALL!!! they have their own meaning to me!!
u can disrespect to me, but to my drawings or comic, u are not forgivable at all...
u dont have the right to say that im show no respect to u, please think of what u hv done to me NOW
2010年10月8日星期五
before this, i was passin through some of those, who used to be my best friends' facebook pages...im not gonna mention about them...im wondering why the relationship will turn into this awkward condition, from brotherhood, to strangers that won't even make a greet to me...
yea i might know the truth, it might because of, i was betrayed them from their trustfulness and not just once....or other reasons...im just hidin myself from it, all i know is im so unforgivable...
how many years, i dint reli look into their eyes...
each time i feel resentful and jealous, when im lookin in their photo...they were laughing amusedly...without me...
yea i might know the truth, it might because of, i was betrayed them from their trustfulness and not just once....or other reasons...im just hidin myself from it, all i know is im so unforgivable...
how many years, i dint reli look into their eyes...
each time i feel resentful and jealous, when im lookin in their photo...they were laughing amusedly...without me...
2010年10月4日星期一
我知道现在完全不是打blog的时间，因为现在是十一点== 明天还有8点的课，marketing 的tutorial question 都还没有做== 一直在看不良仔与眼镜妹……
之前好好的One Piece海贼王的blog skin居然这样就坏了==，没有变，我就先用bleach的顶一下，很难看我知道，我尽早换掉它==
之前好好的One Piece海贼王的blog skin居然这样就坏了==，没有变，我就先用bleach的顶一下，很难看我知道，我尽早换掉它==
2010年9月23日星期四
神志不清的帖子【要睡了～】
现在是凌晨3时，我刚刚才完成明天要交的功课。其内容是不用长尺，画线画满四张A3纸。我一下子chiong完，手现在要断了><。 已经到了开学的第二个星期，没有什么不习惯的。除了那个让人不快的母狗外，我和大家都合得来^^
然后我开始了第一页的漫画哦！！想知道关于我这漫画的内容就留言吧～找时间我跟你说。^^不过我光是画了一页就花了2小时思考每一格分镜，很头痛～画漫画不简单哦～哈哈 【其实没有必要花这么长时间，只是我想把最好的呈现出来。如果我做的草率一点，窝小时大概画了十页吧？哈哈】
性平赔回了我哥哥的耳机～我不用被ngam了～不过幸运的是，我哥哥居然给我用～哈哈 很好，带去上课^^
我换了部落皮～是海盗王的，好看吗？哈哈，我的playlist那边也是很多很好听的歌哦～如果你喜欢的也请你留言吧～ 【老是期待有人留言……哈哈我的blog好想死……】
然后哦～我今晚很不习惯的是，我拿起电话的瞬间，我发觉到我生命少了什么，好像很严重的东西。【很夸张哦，还用生命leh~哈哈不过不无道理，因为是关于老婆的～】 就在我努力思索少了什么的时候，我听到这首歌～ 回家都會看到我的妻子在裝死
老婆的声音立刻出现！哈哈，原来啊～那个baby怕kacau到我，不像以前一样Send一堆SMS给我了。
以前啊，一起床，或者忙完了，看一看电话都会有老婆的信息。都是二位数的。
有时候看到会有点想说，“有没有哦……”。不过阅读内容，觉得老婆笨笨的，哈哈。
不过现在熬夜看不到老婆一堆一堆的信息，感觉怪怪的～
可能一些事情，总是在你生命里出现，你才认为是理所当然，也不会意识到自己已经慢慢依赖了它。直到它消失了才会觉得浑身不对劲。
好像你妈妈整天叫你早点睡，你都不管
好像你老师整天叫你做功课，你都不管
好像你爸爸整天钓鱼给你吃，你都不管
好像你老妈每天煮好晚饭等你回来，你都在外面和朋友吃了
好像你的老公老婆整天说我爱你，所有所有……等等等等
每天都会出现在你生命的人事物，慢慢的，你依赖了，你拒绝了，你认为是理所当然了。他们都会消失……
尤其是你爸爸妈妈……不要整天陪朋友……趁他们还没走，陪他们多一点。就算被骂也没关系，生气就好，不要恨，因为他是你的长辈，带你来世界的人。
不懂做么Leh~突然讲爸爸妈妈……原本是在讲老婆的～哈哈。不过也是的啦，最近那些人也是没有脑的，整天在facebook说我要搬出去啊～我宁愿没有你这个爸爸妈妈啊～整个Sohai酱……都不想想，只有你一个人在受气meh，你爸爸妈妈没有在受你的气？你好意思哦？生你的人还要受你的气？你欠了人家一条命啊，给人家骂两下，把两巴，打两棍，不能当作是还债？而且爸爸妈妈打人也不是没有原因的咯，你身上一定是有一些问题人家才会这样对你的吗。还有还有……很多很多……aiks我都没有力打了……
我不是在那些充满爱～的家庭长大的，很多冲突，状况我都遇过【所谓状况不指家破人亡的悲剧】，我都能讲啊，算啦…怎样都是你爸妈，十多年里东西给你玩，买东西给你吃，买衣服给你穿的人……为什么那些Sohai不能leh?我不信他们的家庭悲剧有几悲咯。
然后我开始了第一页的漫画哦！！想知道关于我这漫画的内容就留言吧～找时间我跟你说。^^不过我光是画了一页就花了2小时思考每一格分镜，很头痛～画漫画不简单哦～哈哈 【其实没有必要花这么长时间，只是我想把最好的呈现出来。如果我做的草率一点，窝小时大概画了十页吧？哈哈】
性平赔回了我哥哥的耳机～我不用被ngam了～不过幸运的是，我哥哥居然给我用～哈哈 很好，带去上课^^
我换了部落皮～是海盗王的，好看吗？哈哈，我的playlist那边也是很多很好听的歌哦～如果你喜欢的也请你留言吧～ 【老是期待有人留言……哈哈我的blog好想死……】
然后哦～我今晚很不习惯的是，我拿起电话的瞬间，我发觉到我生命少了什么，好像很严重的东西。【很夸张哦，还用生命leh~哈哈不过不无道理，因为是关于老婆的～】 就在我努力思索少了什么的时候，我听到这首歌～ 回家都會看到我的妻子在裝死
老婆的声音立刻出现！哈哈，原来啊～那个baby怕kacau到我，不像以前一样Send一堆SMS给我了。
以前啊，一起床，或者忙完了，看一看电话都会有老婆的信息。都是二位数的。
有时候看到会有点想说，“有没有哦……”。不过阅读内容，觉得老婆笨笨的，哈哈。
不过现在熬夜看不到老婆一堆一堆的信息，感觉怪怪的～
可能一些事情，总是在你生命里出现，你才认为是理所当然，也不会意识到自己已经慢慢依赖了它。直到它消失了才会觉得浑身不对劲。
好像你妈妈整天叫你早点睡，你都不管
好像你老师整天叫你做功课，你都不管
好像你爸爸整天钓鱼给你吃，你都不管
好像你老妈每天煮好晚饭等你回来，你都在外面和朋友吃了
好像你的老公老婆整天说我爱你，所有所有……等等等等
每天都会出现在你生命的人事物，慢慢的，你依赖了，你拒绝了，你认为是理所当然了。他们都会消失……
尤其是你爸爸妈妈……不要整天陪朋友……趁他们还没走，陪他们多一点。就算被骂也没关系，生气就好，不要恨，因为他是你的长辈，带你来世界的人。
不懂做么Leh~突然讲爸爸妈妈……原本是在讲老婆的～哈哈。不过也是的啦，最近那些人也是没有脑的，整天在facebook说我要搬出去啊～我宁愿没有你这个爸爸妈妈啊～整个Sohai酱……都不想想，只有你一个人在受气meh，你爸爸妈妈没有在受你的气？你好意思哦？生你的人还要受你的气？你欠了人家一条命啊，给人家骂两下，把两巴，打两棍，不能当作是还债？而且爸爸妈妈打人也不是没有原因的咯，你身上一定是有一些问题人家才会这样对你的吗。还有还有……很多很多……aiks我都没有力打了……
我不是在那些充满爱～的家庭长大的，很多冲突，状况我都遇过【所谓状况不指家破人亡的悲剧】，我都能讲啊，算啦…怎样都是你爸妈，十多年里东西给你玩，买东西给你吃，买衣服给你穿的人……为什么那些Sohai不能leh?我不信他们的家庭悲剧有几悲咯。
2010年9月21日星期二
i wanted to paticipate a comic drawing competition which is organized by a Taiwan company...but i m currently facing a...Quite major crisis that, i will be late to my Bachelor degree...
i failed 2 subject in the previous final exam, 1stly it's maths, which is expected to be failed...although im doin well in every tutorial questions and past year questions...2ndly is Sociology, this 1 is totally out of my expectation, it was the only subject that i pay sooo much effort on it...
when i get this result...i feel so disappointed even until today...and my CGPA is still under 2.0...which means that i have to pay 3 times better effort then the previous trimester so only i can get a higher CGPA, or else i will not able to get into the fxxkin degree...
when these things is runnin through my mind, im stressed up so damn badly and im soo damn lost now...
[besides, there was a BITCH, i don't know her, even her name...she came and asked my name, and she tells me that she never fail her sociology...i cant figure out what was her purpose on doing these to me...but she wont be any better because she Failed her ENGLISH and she is english educated...what a shame...]
currently listening to Namewee's new song
我还是我
it makes me feel soooo emo weii, i like this kinda song...STRONGLY RECOMMANDED!!!!
hahax
is there any back up plan ? just in case i fall from here...
【我不是读书人】
i failed 2 subject in the previous final exam, 1stly it's maths, which is expected to be failed...although im doin well in every tutorial questions and past year questions...2ndly is Sociology, this 1 is totally out of my expectation, it was the only subject that i pay sooo much effort on it...
when i get this result...i feel so disappointed even until today...and my CGPA is still under 2.0...which means that i have to pay 3 times better effort then the previous trimester so only i can get a higher CGPA, or else i will not able to get into the fxxkin degree...
when these things is runnin through my mind, im stressed up so damn badly and im soo damn lost now...
[besides, there was a BITCH, i don't know her, even her name...she came and asked my name, and she tells me that she never fail her sociology...i cant figure out what was her purpose on doing these to me...but she wont be any better because she Failed her ENGLISH and she is english educated...what a shame...]
currently listening to Namewee's new song
我还是我
it makes me feel soooo emo weii, i like this kinda song...STRONGLY RECOMMANDED!!!!
hahax
is there any back up plan ? just in case i fall from here...
【我不是读书人】
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